I Made A Mistake!

I’m training someone at work, a position that I have had less than a year, and a department that lacks any kind of training program or updates policies and procedures. After a complicated and rare case, my supervisor asked when my orientee and I would have time to chat about the case… and I panicked. […]

New Beginning, New Adventure

Looking back at when I started this documentation of my journey, my husband and I had just sold our house with nowhere to live. We released a lot. We left a home we had lived in for 5 years. We left the constant reminders that Thor was no longer there. When we would open the […]

Well This is Going to Hurt

My husband’s moving truck is here. I’m listening to the sounds of plastic wrap, footsteps, and a dolly while I sit locked away in my office. Looking out the window, I watch as pieces of our life from the past 10 years get loaded and packed away. Later today I’ll go pick up my own […]

Be Vulnerable or Get Hurt

This year has been a whirlwind. My medications were dialed in, my therapy was going well enough, and the stress of having someone’s life in my hands was gone. Still. It wasn’t right. It wasn’t enough. My chaotic tornado of thoughts and emotions lived up to its fullest potential. It’s pretty spectacular, really. Structure and […]

Shadow Work Part 2

This was an interesting exercise. It took a minute to get started, but then everything started to flow. It’s interesting to look at these lists and make connections between them. Now I’m going to go hug my inner child and let her know that she is love. She didn’t need love from anyone else. 🖤🤍🖤 […]

Learned Shame and Blame

My parents tried their hardest. I truly believe they did the best they could with the knowledge and skills they had at the time. At the same time, there were a lot of lessons I wish I had learned during childhood. There are traits I wish I could have honed. My sisters and I were […]