Well This is Going to Hurt

My husband’s moving truck is here. I’m listening to the sounds of plastic wrap, footsteps, and a dolly while I sit locked away in my office. Looking out the window, I watch as pieces of our life from the past 10 years get loaded and packed away. Later today I’ll go pick up my own […]

Let Go of the Outcome

My emotional intelligence and sense of self has come a long way. Still, I frustrate myself when I seem to take steps back. I never liked being in control. Being in control is scary. It has responsibility. And it is exhausting, anxiety-inducing, and frustrating when I’m trying to be in control, but I actually have […]

Fall, You Fickle Bitch

I’ve been ungrounded. Flighty, perhaps. Finding it difficult to name, own, and process my emotions. When my husband is overwhelmed, he goes into productivity mode. When I’m overwhelmed? Full burrito mode. Hence, almost all of his belongings are packed into boxes and stacked in the garage. He has a plan. He’s making things happen. Me? […]

The Trauma of Death and Dying

I need to start this post with a trigger warning. In this post, I am writing out my experience, trauma, and feelings surrounding the unexpected death of a friend. The themes of this post include death and dying, and includes visuals as they are a part of my trauma and need to be a part […]

Grief and Guilt

It has been a big emotion type of day. My husband and I are now in our new home after being nomads for 5-6 weeks. We still have a lot to do. We don’t have about 90% of our belongings yet, so those will need to be moved in and unpacked as well. That doesn’t […]