I Made A Mistake!

I’m training someone at work, a position that I have had less than a year, and a department that lacks any kind of training program or updates policies and procedures. After a complicated and rare case, my supervisor asked when my orientee and I would have time to chat about the case… and I panicked. […]

Well This is Going to Hurt

My husband’s moving truck is here. I’m listening to the sounds of plastic wrap, footsteps, and a dolly while I sit locked away in my office. Looking out the window, I watch as pieces of our life from the past 10 years get loaded and packed away. Later today I’ll go pick up my own […]

You’re Safe Now, Little One

I’ve often commented that my trauma, my stress response, or my adrenaline response is to freeze. I don’t fight. I don’t run. I freeze. During a moment of internal reflection and meditation last night, I think I have a better understanding of what is happening when I freeze. At least, I’ve figured out a description […]

My Therapeutic Journey

I never wanted to go to therapy before. I knew that it was going to just open the flood gates and force me to break myself down in order to build myself up. In 2017 I started going to couples counseling. I had a couple one on one sessions as well. I cried during every […]

Lessons of an Ignorant White Girl

After one of the weirdest years in history, after riots and injustice, after personal pain and loss, after a ridiculous election year that continues to tear people apart, and in the middle of a contested election… I have a lot of thoughts running through my head. It’s so easy to jump in the middle of […]

Hug Your Inner Child

I’m starting to realize how much my inner child needs healing. I clearly have negative and painful memories when it comes to my father. When my dad would wake up in the morning and wander out of his room, I would stay silent until I could scrutinize the way he walked and the expression on […]

You Might Be the Asshole

Ok. Maybe you’re not the asshole. You’re probably actually very lovely and I’m just projecting my own experience onto every else’s life. This morning found me grinning to myself as I reflected on a recent interaction with my husband. Our relationship is by far stronger now than it ever has been in the past. After […]

Comparing Negative Traits

I found this writing prompt on a blog and looked at it for a long time: “If I’m honest, I have the same negative traits as my father. For example: ________________.” Oof. Ok. Let’s do this. If I’m honest, I have the same negative traits as my father. For example: I get irrationally irritable and […]

Shadow Work Part 2

This was an interesting exercise. It took a minute to get started, but then everything started to flow. It’s interesting to look at these lists and make connections between them. Now I’m going to go hug my inner child and let her know that she is love. She didn’t need love from anyone else. 🖤🤍🖤 […]

Dig Deeper Into the Hurt

If there is one thing that has angered me the most in the past few months, it would definitely be my dad’s Facebook posts. He probably has the same mindset and posts as a lot of conservatives from his generation, but why do his posts in particular make the heat rise on my face and […]