I Made A Mistake!

I’m training someone at work, a position that I have had less than a year, and a department that lacks any kind of training program or updates policies and procedures. After a complicated and rare case, my supervisor asked when my orientee and I would have time to chat about the case… and I panicked. […]

Well This is Going to Hurt

My husband’s moving truck is here. I’m listening to the sounds of plastic wrap, footsteps, and a dolly while I sit locked away in my office. Looking out the window, I watch as pieces of our life from the past 10 years get loaded and packed away. Later today I’ll go pick up my own […]

You’re Safe Now, Little One

I’ve often commented that my trauma, my stress response, or my adrenaline response is to freeze. I don’t fight. I don’t run. I freeze. During a moment of internal reflection and meditation last night, I think I have a better understanding of what is happening when I freeze. At least, I’ve figured out a description […]

My Therapeutic Journey

I never wanted to go to therapy before. I knew that it was going to just open the flood gates and force me to break myself down in order to build myself up. In 2017 I started going to couples counseling. I had a couple one on one sessions as well. I cried during every […]

Lessons of an Ignorant White Girl

After one of the weirdest years in history, after riots and injustice, after personal pain and loss, after a ridiculous election year that continues to tear people apart, and in the middle of a contested election… I have a lot of thoughts running through my head. It’s so easy to jump in the middle of […]

Step One: Accept the Thoughts

It’s hard to accept help. I’m not sure why. And it’s not all the time. Sometimes I’m completely opposite and I ask for help when I don’t need it. But my husband and I just had a situation where we spent a lot of money and a lot of time and effort on a futile […]