Be Vulnerable or Get Hurt

This year has been a whirlwind. My medications were dialed in, my therapy was going well enough, and the stress of having someone’s life in my hands was gone. Still. It wasn’t right. It wasn’t enough. My chaotic tornado of thoughts and emotions lived up to its fullest potential. It’s pretty spectacular, really. Structure and […]

Learned Shame and Blame

My parents tried their hardest. I truly believe they did the best they could with the knowledge and skills they had at the time. At the same time, there were a lot of lessons I wish I had learned during childhood. There are traits I wish I could have honed. My sisters and I were […]

Finding My Sexual Truth

I will wait for you to tell me who you are, I will wait for you to tell me your truth, and I will accept when you tell me it’s changed. I’ve spent a lot of time trying to find out who I am. I’ve probably driven my husband crazy by pondering out loud existential […]