Learned Shame and Blame

My parents tried their hardest. I truly believe they did the best they could with the knowledge and skills they had at the time. At the same time, there were a lot of lessons I wish I had learned during childhood. There are traits I wish I could have honed. My sisters and I were […]

Breaking the Dam

Couples’ therapy shook up my life. Well, I started the process of shaking up my life when I made the poor decisions that led us to couples’ therapy. Deep down, I had always kind of known that I needed some help unpacking all of my emotional baggage. I even remember telling my husband that I […]

Finding My Sexual Truth

I will wait for you to tell me who you are, I will wait for you to tell me your truth, and I will accept when you tell me it’s changed. I’ve spent a lot of time trying to find out who I am. I’ve probably driven my husband crazy by pondering out loud existential […]

Peace in Vulnerability

Keeping up appearances. What a crazy self-induced constraint. No wonder I went through so many years being miserable and feeling like I didn’t really belong. Of course I don’t belong in a place that requires sacrificing my own needs and desires in order to keep up a pretty, “socially acceptable” wall between myself and the […]

Shadow Work

I started this blog to try to be more confident in my true self, which also means discovering my true self. I want to be seen now, instead of the years I spent dimming my light. So, you know what? Let’s dive in. Let’s be vulnerable. I read that shadow work is about illuminating the […]

TikTok & Shamanism

During my thorough perusing of TikTok, I came across a video by Rhonda McCrimmon. She drew me in and before I knew it, I signed up for emails from her website, joined her Facebook group, and then listened to one of her podcasts. She is amazingly lovely and positive, and since I’ve been on a […]

Let’s Not Just Survive; Let’s Live

For the second time in my life, I am packing up my home and seeing where the universe guides me… and I’m excited. I’ve never been able to figure out where I’m going. Or who I am. Or why I’m here. Or what this all means. But I do feel like I’m getting closer to […]

The Childless Path

I’m not sure why my decision to not have children affects other people so deeply. Even when a stranger asks me if I have children… and I tell them no… they ask, “Not yet?” When I reply that I don’t want kids, they tend to say the same things: “Why don’t you want kids?!” “But […]